Seventeen large boxes are all that’s left of Studio Mailbox. They’re nestled tightly in a garage storage unit. I’ve been contemplating what to do about this and I still haven’t come to any conclusions.
I came across these photos which made me want to say goodbye to my old space. I’m pretty sure these are the last pictures taken there. I remember being very stressed while sorting and getting rid of things. I selected each and every tiny thing very carefully before deciding if I should pack it or not. I put as much effort into it as if I had been asked to save the human race. I worked among half-filled boxes, chaos and indecision for a long time.
Some of the stuff was really hard to let go of. I wouldn’t exactly call myself a hoarder, but I do make attachments to the strangest things. You can’t believe how tough it was saying goodbye to my paint cup, so much so that I clearly felt the need to do a photo shoot before I threw it away. Years and years of watery glue was stuck to the lip, which had a way of enclosing layer after layer of paint drips.
So now that you know how hard it was to let go of a cup, image how hard it is to tell you that I think I'm done here.
I've been kicking this around for awhile, and I'm pretty sure it's time.
When I moved to Europe all those years ago I waited anxiously for the container with all my worldly belongings to arrive. And when it got there, I had dishes that didn't fit in the cupboards and pans that didn't fit in the oven. I had sheets that didn't fit the bed and I had appliances that couldn't convert to the electricity.
Right now, this blog feels exactly like one of those things that isn't going to fit into my new life.
I'm letting you know because I think it's horseshit to disappear on people and not let them know what's up. You've all been so good to me, I'm not going to leave you hanging.
There's no question that I'll miss you.
"Tschuus" is the informal goodbye in German. It's not the dramatic, embracing, wipe tears away "Aufwiedersehen." It's just "see you later."
That's all this is, a casual "cheerio" until our paths cross again.